The-Heart-of-a-Loner

Wow, I suppose it's been an exceptionally long time since I've actually written a journal entry for DA.  -Can't even remember the last journal entry, really.-  Well, I guess as many of you can see there hasn't been too many updates, I'm slowly working on the Shimeji, although at the moment I've hit a bit of a snag and am working out the details.  I won't set a time or date to when it will be finished, but hopefully it won't take me too long.  It's just a matter of getting my muses to cooperate with me along with well, the initiative to actually sit down for a period of time and get things done lol, but so be the ways of an artist I suppose.  Speaking of blocks, my writing muse has suddenly just shut down, which is beyond irritating considering I've joined the Hetalia Facebook RP extravaganza so to speak.  I've come to meet some amazing people, and I've stumbled upon a few who just, quite honestly, tickle me pink with their work.  It's such a thrill to write with others, and I'm glad I joined~  I just wish now that the muses would actually let me... It's sad that I just end up staring at the screen with no... oomph so to speak to reply.  Sure, I could force one out, but that's not right by any means.  Meh, hopefully it'll pass and I can get back to writing.  

There are not too many personal updates really that I feel like sharing, although my Wiccan class is quite an inspirational place to be.  I've met many wonderful people there as well.  Ones that, now, I consider closer to me than any blood relative could ever be.  Then again, I've never put much value in blood relatives anyways.  xDD  For some reason, they always seem to disappoint~  

Anyways, all that aside, I hope everyone is all fine and dandy, and hopefully you'll see some new stuff from me soon~

Well I've gotten my tablet pen restored, and both the tablet and pen work phenomenally well; however it seems whatever skills I had before are now just... not present, in any way- which is quite upsetting. I can't even seem to draw on normal paper anymore... let's pray that it's just an art slump and not a serious downfall in the drawing department in my mind. xD Doodles are always present though, I've probably filled an entire notebook by now with just doodles and nothing else- tells you where my mind goes during school huh?

That's another note as well, graduating this June, 56 days to be exact. I find it positively stunning that I'm already a Senior in High School, and that that entire year is practically gone. Makes me wonder where the hell it all went!! It doesn't seem like I did all that much... Sure I made memories, but it doesn't seem like anything out of the ordinary that would honestly make all that time pass by so quickly. *Shrugs* I'm pretty sure that with all sorts of dates and things coming up, my muses have just decided to go on vacation so that I can worry about other things.

Alas, I will continue to attempt to draw more- I miss it.
Toodles for now~

Well, it seems that I had quite a lot of fun enjoying the tablet while I could... however now there's a dilemma. *laughs* I made the awful mistake to leave my tablet out... in the open, with my puppies around... I now no longer have a pen to actually draw on my tablet with. *laughs again* However, I won't let that stop me for too long, yet I must admit that future submissions will be slow and few between until I get the pen repaired. :3

Merry Christmas to those that celebrate it- and Happy Holidays to the rest of you- even if you don't celebrate it!

And of course- in the upcoming days- Happy New Year as well. :3

And I do believe I hear a whisper of inspiration on the wind...
For Christmas I've recieved a tablet... so be on the lookout for pieces from me in the near future. 8D It's quite fun, I must admit.

Toodles for now though dearies! I've got a nap or something to take... >>

So Senior Year has started, and quite honestly I'm not sure whether to believe that it's hit me yet or that I'm just somehow taking it all in great stride. >> I've got some wonderful classes though. Floral Design being one of them along with College Composition. I never really thought I was much of a flower person, but I greatly enjoy making arrangements, and I enjoy the expressions of the people who see or receive those arrangements even more. College Composition always proves to be interesting, we've got a pretty diverse class, and the students there along with me are surprising me each and every day with their input. I mean, come on-- I've known most of them since Kindergarten... xD Seeing how some have matured (And others who have obviously not) is really quite interesting.

Although I'm writing pretty much everyday, or at least pushing myself to, art has been at a standstill. Once in a great while I'll doodle, or get the inspiration-- but honestly I can't say I'm all that motivated. You could call it Artist's block or whatever, but I don't think that's quite it. If anything, I blame it on Floral Design, because I get to create something that's so pretty with my own hands each day. Regardless of that, I'm hoping to possibly get some colored pieces out or something soon-- even if they're doodles off odds and ends. xD If you're really that diligent of a watcher, then you'll see them. But I honestly won't put up a ton of doodles to spam your deviant message box.

Well, for now, I'm back to enjoying the rest of my night; and I bid you all adieu.

"It's weird...you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to hold on, just for one more second...just so it can hurt a little more."